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A presence so bright
That you had to go
Just doesn't seem right
forever, we will be together
came to us through love
Returning it in so many ways
Oh, how you were cherished
Each and every day
the pain of unanswerable questions
Memories are etched in our soul
Polished by streams of tears
Each and every day
hurts so much, so deeply
Time doesn't seem to care
Your spirit remaining inside us
Makes living a tolerable affair
your spirit living inside us
Making us aware
We are Forever Together
And that is an answered prayer
©Bob Olson June, 2000
In Memory of Lori, Heather, and Ann Olson
As well as all other children who have gone before their time. . .
Adam Kenneth Kowalyshyn
08/30/90 -- 08/31/00
Where art thou?
I'm in heaven now
Embraced in his arms
How will you be?
I'll be forever
Happy and free
Will I see you again?
Of course mommy
In the promise land
Adam, My Adam
When will that be?
When your work is done here
You will then join me
Adam's Sister, Krystin
for Adam's Mother
Joshua Lee Gray
8/2/78 - 05/07/00
Solace in the Gentleness of
For it is the Essence of
All Living things.
Take Pride in all things
For the brightness of true beauty
Shall never fade.
Dwell not on the Mundane nor the Routine
For they are only fleeting barricades
Along the True Path.
Let your star shine so others may follow
Michael Lee Gray
Joshua Lee's father
Of My Son
Joshua Lee Fields
11/14/76 -- 05/29/96
"Yet those who wait for the
Will gain new strength;
They will mount up with wings like eagles,
They will run and not get tired,
They will walk and not become weary."
You Still Hear Creedance?"
"Good times I remember" in October of
1976. Painting a chest all yellow with blue knobs, Hoping and praying the life within me was a baby boy! Overwhelmed with the
anticipation of finally holding a baby, My baby, no one elseís, mine! I made it this
time, I am further along; I never made it this far before. It was really going to
happen!!!!!!!! Iíd turn on the stereo and
play my Green River Album clean my house and sing all the songs.
Josh you would be kickiní away the whole time the music was playing. I would stop, rub my swollen up
belly, and ask "which one do you like the Best, "Green River" or "Bad Moon
Rising". Then go on singing and cleaning. Itís the fall of 1994, youíre all grown up now, (at least
you are pretty convinced of it)
You have a part time job after school, you own your own truck and paying your
own car insurance Yes "you were in total control now" (there you go thinkiní
again) I am sitting in the computer room when I hear the door open and close, you came storming in. [Always
had to announce your presence in some way]; I hear this yell coming from the living
room, "Mom, come listen to this tape I bought; itís really cool". Before I can
give a reply "Green River" is playing on
the stereo. I rushed into the family room; "Josh do you
remember Creedance? "With a perplexed look on your face; "No". I began sharing the story with you
about being pregnant and listening to
Creedance. All you did was give me that look "Yeah
right". You played the tape over and over again. Trying to learn every word to the songs on the tape. As I listened
all of the memories of, being pregnant with you; holding your life within me were rushing through my
mind. As I kept on talking and telling you of each of them; you just kept on singing. Was
it possible that in just a short time from then I would never hear you sing or play your Creedance Tape
again. I wish I had a hint; a warning. Something that would have allowed me to stop all the pain,
sadness, and disbelief that would come into our lives.
On November 14th
this year you would have turned 24 years old. Fall is here, October and
November are coming too fast for me to prepare myself for the unrelenting yearning to see
your face again. I want all your memories to never leave me. As your birthday approaches I will be listening
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSH, I MISS YOU
WITH A PAIN SHARPER THAN ANY KNIFE, MY PRECIOUS BABY BOY, ALWAYS AND FOREVER. I HOPE YOU CAN STILL HEAR
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